Despair

Despair commonly hits me
as a fighter to an opponent
Helpless am I against
such a powerful state
Occasionally, I ponder on
the simple thought of
ease in breathing->
the naturalness, the unconscious
effort that is put into
every single gulp of air
taken into my lungs <-
and feel as though I am not
worthy to live. I sit and sulk
until I am near the point of madness

July 29, 1994